Method to Madness

Progress has been “slow” over the course of the previous month's, yes. I've been sliding it under the guise of “restructuring” & taking stock of my PPF (past, present, future).

I've been trying to ascertain what I've accomplished over the course of my life, so as to understand the aces I have + refining my present for a better tomorrow + laying down my short term goals.

My long term goals have remained the same; to maximize the 4 KPIs that matter most to me:

• Access to Capital

• Power & Influence

• Distribution (Fame)

• Desirability

I've crystallized my disconnected thoughts, and have understood that I need to be a 7-8 in most metrics in life, to be able to successfully maximise my KPIs (as DMU starts to set in)

An 8 in the scale of looks along with an 8 in every other metric will beat a 10 in just one metric, by a longshot.

Example: Tom Cruise, Leo vs someone like Henry Cavil

Yes, the example may be a bit flawed, but somehow this makes sense to me.

Furthermore, I've somehow begun to write off all my progress & “accomplishments” in life so far, as if I've not done anything in life, because honestly, it feels that way.

I'm starting to feel genuinely as if I've not worked a day in my life, towards anything. My college means nothing to me, my companies mean nothing to me, money earned looks like peanuts (which it honestly is)

I do not think that this is good, but it is how it is. I know for certain that I am falling behind. I should have accomplished far more in life than I have.

I don't know what the method to my madness is, all I know is, that I have the become the richest person in the world & accomplish something meaningful by the age of thirty, or else, I'll have to take my life.