i wish i was a prodigy

hi you,

I don’t understand myself, I can be feeling great, and then just a simple fucking thing can fuck my mood over, and I’ll start crying

My emotions are so volatile

Whenever I see someone my age, or someone younger than me, and I see them doing cool things, I feel so shit about myself because dude, what have I accomplished. Absolutely zilch

That too after basically dedicating my entire life to my work, not having any “friends” or any social life, or whatever, still I’m not able to be like them

There are 18 year olds who have gotten into YC, millions of followers, doing cool shit, coming in movies, fucking comedians, next-gen celebs, and whatnot, and me?

Well, I’m just, existing. Barely