I feel so guilty going to sleep (severe insomnia)

Over the past one month or so, I’ve been having immense trouble falling asleep—I never had this problem previously—I used to sleep just fine, even though I had a less hectic work schedule and did not work out.

Now, after having a much more tiring day (meetings & work), and working out (gym), I’m still unable to fall asleep—I stay awake till literally 8 A.M. Like what the fuck.

While forcing myself to try to sleep, I came across this realization—this aha moment—eureka moment—I feel that I’m having this stint with insomnia due to the increased guilt I’ve been feeling recently.

Guilt of not achieving results and milestones which I wish I would have accomplished by now. I’m almost eighteen—2 more days left.

When I look at my peers, I feel so miserable. I feel miserable because I’ve had an immensely privileged background (perhaps not as privileged as most people I know personally, but I’m grateful), and I’ve not done anything which I’m proud of, and that pisses me off.

When I look back at my previous two years, which are quite a blur actually, I wish I worked harder—I slacked off so much,

But oh well, no point in crying over spilled milk—back to work I go!

Toodles.

P.S. I know this way of thinking and this fucked up sleep schedule is not healthy at all, and is probably going to kill me slowly—I know, I know, dw.